Sunday, December 7, 2008
Guilty...
Know something...i keep telling myself i wun make the same old mistake in order not to hurt my love one...but today...i did the same old mistake and i hurt her...i felt the change..but she keep saying...she feel nothing..im so scare...her tears reminded me of my past...and the "eyes"the eyes that make me change.......This time ...im so scare....at the same time i got back the feeling of family is like...at the same time of today....i hurt my love one.......the moment i saw her tears my heart ache to the core.....i felt like stabbing my own heart......i control my tears throughout the trip but still it fall when i reach home....im lost...lost in everywhere..........i really hate myself....at that moment back home i felt so bastard.....yes i may think too much....but...i cant deny i hurt her and at the same time i hurt myself totally to the core.....the image of her crying just cant get out of my mind....if u ask me how guilty am i?I will reply..willingly to accept to be guilty and accept any punishment....Loving u 4ever is my dream...is my long term goal....cause i know no matter wat happen if u do not have love...u simply will feel u are nothing in this world.I found my another half...yet its seems like im chasing her away.....how bastard can i be.....she say she dun believe me le...at the moment my deeply sank....i really never lie to her.....but just cant be blame all the cause of unhappiness is cause by me...loving her with all my heart...never lie .....always try my best to make her happy...been true to her deep from the bottom of my heart.....i gave up games i gave up alot of thing my bad habit everything....and start from zero ...but has i really start afresh....??But one thing i do know ....i wan to love her for the rest for my life ...just wan to lead a simple life with my dearest bao bei...thats all
8:13 AM; &they are gone forever
