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Saturday, September 13, 2008

Last Post Be4 NS

13/9/2008 i had a good time with my bao bei although is a last outing be4 i go NS and i look back at our past through all the photo just so cant bear to leave.......

=== thats the 6th month anniversary gift feel so touch with something call "Da Da Zhe Ji Tian Wo Bu Zha Ni SHen BIan ,Ni Yao Jia You Jia You,Wo Ai Ni ,Smuacks" LOve it so much =)

===U are always by my side===

Thats where we go out at suntec eating donut factory.This pic to me is one the nicest cause bao bei did smile from her heart....its just so beautiful with her smile =) alot of photo i did not upload but i only upload the best.

===I will always do my Best for u...always===

LOL i close my eyes when taking our photo oops....Bao bei always give out a smile .....that......is ......sooooooo...kawaii.
Look carefully wor she got a new hair cut hahaha =) so nice

===Promise are never mend to be broken===

This is where i smuggle Bao bei into my office when last time i work...haha although is forbidden....but i just did it ...oh ya i break the office rule waahhaha......oops ....Bao bei look so happy =) look so outgoing girl hahaha so kawaii..

===As long u are Happy , i will be Happy===

Hahaha Bao bei studying at burger King with her old specs......oh my she really look so cute lah .....she look like some primary school kids form teacher......oh gosh im totally mesmerize by her....hahaha.....the position somehow look like Zhao cai mao hahaha

===Looking at u Brighten up my whole life===

Thanks to Bao bei.....i having a hard times working at my job ...and during lunch we meet up and she wrote on my hand...alot of time i really had a hard time on that day.....

===U walk with me through my crisis===

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There are alot alot more than i wan to talk to show my love to bao bei but just that time i just not enough.....i miss all the ppl around me but more importantly i miss u bao bei seeing the passt although got happy sad angry everything....i still say im very happy that u are my girl.....now it is ...in the future it will be......i love u......wait for me....

Ns Here i come.....with my bao bei by my side....

7:48 PM; &they are gone forever

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Fear

haiz today just really not me.....hate to say so.....but damn me......wat am i when i seriously think............i dunno ......when i ask myself again when i hurt someone i love......i found myself getting smaller and smaller .............even not seeing myself.......morning i wake up scared cause of going NS and miss my bao bei so much and scared because leaving my bao bei alone...........wat she wan i give in ....but she give an idea today....somehow i felt hurt and accept unwillingly....i know she meant for my good....but somehow i just felt hurt ............if anybody were to ask me y i would say i duno......cause i even duno about myself.......and because of i dunno about my ownself i hurt my bao bei...again.....when im in the room alone closing my door ....i really felt alone....i was waiting for call or sms.......but none ......i always hope.....but always been despair......but den again....i think properly.....its my fault......and when i sort out my mind i try calling her sending her sms but she just no reply....haiz.....is NS giving me Fear.....no.....im Fearing for losing my bao bei.....thats y im not myself.......i Fear for losing her......really.....yet....i ...hurt....her.....im ...sorry..bao bei....im...sorry....

6:55 AM; &they are gone forever

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Genting trip

31 August:Going to bao bei house after preparing all my thing going for the genting trip.when reaching her house we watch spirited away ....and waaaaaaaaaaaaa....even tough watch alot of time le .....i still like that movie ......its SOOOOOOOOO NICE LAH.....hahahaha...especially with my bao bei ........felt so happy .....=).....den after that we play computer game the sega emulator....haha so hard to play using keyboard but somehow we still play it...and its very fun.....and well bao bei .....hahha...abit lose control and cant stop laughing hahahha........her face was super funny lah.....hahahha....den after that we have dinner together.....and the dinner is really very nice also..=) eat something that i have not eat for a long time hahaha......then after that we went to the living room to watch show and wait till around 9.30 we slowly walk to kovan hub...den after that we take the bus kkkL....starting got abit dizzy so take out my med to make me feel comfortable......somehow that night abit cant bear to go maybe because miss my parents bah but luckily got my bao bei beside me at least somehow i felt comfortable and warmth.....when we on the way there bao bei notice something that is the sky is totally cover with stars....the scene is really just so beautiful and i was totally captured by the beauty of the star cause in my life i never see the whole sky cover with stars that all shine so brightly...thanks to my bao bei im able to see such beautiful scenary in my life ...and i notice something...under the starlight.....i look into my bao bei eyes.....her eyes is so beautiful just like the stars in the sky...which totally captured me totally...=)...really wor i never bluff..and bao bei is really very beautiful which always is =)......somehow when the trip continue i cant sleep so i keep seeing how my bao bei sleep hahaha....she keep tossing around if not her head will turn left turn right maybe cause of the bus keep bumping lah...haha den alot of time her head almost bump into the window....den around 1hour+ from malaysia custom we reach yong peng seems like alot of thing to buy den half an hour we board back the bus and around 3.45am we reach genting...didnt have any sleep throughout the whole trip dunno y..the place is so misty and really unable to see anything and somehow abit cold so i wear the jacket bao bei parents lend me.......not bad lah but cant keep wearing cause quite hot too ...but the air is indeed very fresh and cooling.....when we reach there we place our bag at some sort of place where it keep our bag.....den bao bei relatives all go casino play left us walking around ...but all the shop are like close ....den somehow when we walk around the close shop and trying to see the outdoor theme park but the mist is just so much that is unable to see from anywhere....anyway my tour guide is my bao bei =) hahaha she is really my everything hahaha.......she brought me around to all available places in genting haha....den somehow we walk till genting hotel and she somewat tired and i found there got place to sit down and let her sit ....somehow both accidentally fall asleep and let the ppl over there wake us up and chase us away hahaha....den we walk around those shopping area at genting hotel.....qutie alot lucky i saw a place where sell the chinese herbal soup that can cure my bao bei sore throat and her fever...but sadded is that shop is not open yet haiz.....den after that we walk around and saw her sis and her sis in law den we go marybrown have breakfast....somehow the bake bean there sucks destroy my whole stomach.....and my egg is green colour de bao bei sis egg is normal colour de....so much difference....den after that reallyt have no place to go then we go cyber cafe to kill time and we play quite some games like resident evil arh simpson arh bejewel and red alert 2 ...erm not sure izzit i misx up the sequences but we did somthing like that lah...den we try to see and play arcade but it just dun opne =(..................den around noon time we go get our lugguage and book into the hotel room at 1st world hotel....the hotel quite ok lah....the queue number is 48 quite fast lah but im more worried for my bao bei cause she almost lost her voice and getting feverish which is no good.....for the room allocation wise of course i share the room with bao bei dad and bao bei with her mum.....den after that we go haka the restuarant beside the casino to have breakfast ...not bad lah the bake bean there is not bad got the standard there hahhaa...den order chestnut sugar cane for bao bei to smooth her throat but still not very helpful ...den after that we go arcade to play got basket ball got motor got house of dead 3 den at we play after that we go do some shoppping but can see that bao bei really not feeling and she trying her best accompany me &show me around ....thank you bao bei...&sorry for troubling u making u speak so mucch even u sore throat.....after that we go back hotel room for a rest ......till 4 + bah..............- .- i think i mix up the sequence again mans something wrong with my memory....den in the end i sleep the most ....sound like im the most pig over there lol...............den we play arcade sing song sing baby shi wo....=)......den around night time we go play bowling.....and 1st time play bowling ....quite tough trhwoing heavy ball to hit all the target but somehow accidentally win for the 1st game =) but 2nd round kind of losing alot...but i notice somehow bao bei is not happy......me trying my best to comfort and ask her y izzi she become more sick but somehow she keep saying is alright.....but knew there is something amiss...den after that in star buck after the game she told me she couldnt find a good ball that suits her and something that i have done wrong while i playing.....never thought of that....but nvm after that we go back hotel to sleep....den the next day me wake up is already 8.30

2nd day in genting:Today wake up i keep bugging my bao bei i wan go theme park hahaha acted like a kidz....hahah....den after breakfast....we chiong to theme park!!!!!!!!!!wahahaha.....starting we sit the chair den swing us round up nad down de dunno wats that call but me got height probia starting find it hard to but after a few round abit ok lar but the phrobia still tthere..haiz.....den after that we go sit the cyclone .....waseh scary like a mini roller coaster .....got one part i super scared cause my my butt is off my seat especially going down for the 1st time den the rest not scary le....den after that we got sit crazy space lab arh pirate thing arh flying dragon and mine train arh and anitque car and kart arh.....flying dragon ok lah me just dun dare to look down cause scary and i saw guo wei over flying dragon........ mine train not bad lah still abit scary hahaha.......antique car haha we almost bang onto somebody car too....hahaha....den at night we go watch WALL-E.....super cute lar.......love that movie....hahaha.....eve and wall-e haha one is old machine one is new machine yet can be together so nice ....den after that we go watch dreamz...not bad lar those magician and white tiger and white lion what impress me the most are the kids with flex body and those daring move quite shocking.....they all look so young and able to do such stun....haha den after we meet up with bao bei relatives and eat supper at pizza hut...man i eat until i afraid of pizza le but the pizza there not realy that good compare to sg....hhaaha sorry lah me like food alot de....haha den we go back to hotel ...den be4 sleep bao bei dad and i have a small chat....while chatting we chat about society my dad occupation and saying im too honest....im so sure about that but ..haiz...nvm bah.....think too much le....make myself did not sleep well....

Last day.....
somehow time is really flying fast we go arcade clear house of dead 4 we went shopping eat fried ice cream ...when we left genting bao bei ask me how i find genting i say not bad but provided she is there by my side.......i started to feel emo ....not missing genting ...but is just that bao bei and me our time to be together are just so fast....wat i really miss our time together....even though this genting trip got alot of restriction i wun mind....more importantly is got bao bei by my side.....but yet the time still fly so fast.......somehow during bus trip back i kind of emo and sad.........even though she by my side yet i still miss her so much ...cause of NS.....trying my best keep looking at her face throughout the trip to see her as much as i wan.....but times really fly i enjoy her by my side hugging me smiling at me laughing her everything is really making me very very happy....but yet the time fly is really very fast....indeed very fast reach sg and my dad send me home.....and i found out its great to be back to sg too hahah.....im back.....

TO bao bei:
Although trip has ended le....i really enjoy it really very well...especially with u .....if u not by my side....i really cant enjoy that much .....i miss u .....and i wan to be with u 4ever.....=)...I LOVE U.....forever.......(^ .^)

7:55 PM; &they are gone forever