Monday, August 4, 2008
Its so incomplete
Ytd night be4 we parted.......i can only say i dun wan to leave........but still the fact i need to leave....she was tired too.....somehow when i last see her face be4 she close the door i keep trying to see and see her..........but the door still need to be shut...............dunno y i felt something is so lost inside me..........that night me on my way home dunno y i suddenly felt so hungry then go nearby kopitiam with my buddies have a drink or 2 .....get to know something ...from them....den today somehow when i wake up my house is the same only im the only one at home.....den after that go dance ddr with buddies they all dunno y ....i still felt so empty...........today without her by my side i can only say im really nothing ....im really a nothing.........when i walk the path when the wind blow its so nice but it will be perfect when she is by my side........i can only say i miss my bao bei .................no matter wat thing i did today i keep missing her like mad.............even when she reply me she wan to be alone im so scared did i do something wrong that make her angry i dunno.......today i got something something that is really very nice i feel like giving her now but still i gotta wait ....should i give it to her during 16 this month or should i give her immediately when we met the next time......i dunno.....today i can only say im very happy that i finally got something that really belong to her ,,,,,but at the same day somehow i felt as if i did something wrong that make her ignore me and letting herself wan to be alone ...........wanna hear her voice when she release wanna call her but she dun wan..........she just wanna be alone 4 awhile ............when i ask her will she be online she say no..........somehow i get depress .............wat did i do wrong.............my tears keep coming out somehow i cant control it .............even when i pray in my evening prayer my mind is thinking of her and almost wash my eyes when praying.........i go take a nap 1st bah ...........i really cant stop thinking about her............i can only say i miss her deeply madly and my life is really incomplete without my bao bei.......when i see the gift i brought her and the ring on hand i broke down..........i miss her...............
2:08 AM; &they are gone forever