Monday, July 7, 2008
What should i do?
haiz wat should i do??????Not sure of bao bei izzit emo for ytd ???or???she sound like we may not last long which i duun like to hear.........have i given her too much stress?????or did i do anything upset her?????even though she say is about her....but how about me ??????? I care for her too ......Today wake up im in the half abit emo state le ......i dunno wat to say about me ........i cant be selfish .....i cant be angry .....i just want to be by her side .........everytime i remember wat she say in msn ytd night my heart will fall&Pain abit.....and my tears will slowly creeping out of my eyes........haiz singpore dunno y just lack of water can come take water from me le.........when working somehow i feel sian i wan to stone i wan to lax i wan to sleep.............work indeed sux thats wat i feel from work now le.....wat should i do wat should i do im feeling so dead but i cant tell my bao bei how dead am i i dun wan to let her worry ........i cant smile.....i cant laugh .....i shut myself totally inside out in the corner of my company....corner are good its cozy watever thing done at there no one will know except urself.....thats y for working i like to hide at corner.......i start to feel like running away from reality again ..........tired externally and internally the pain inflict by work is so damaging............and can only wait for the time where i can see my bao bei then the damage will start to heal .........suddenly see too much the monitor make my eyes even more like sleeping .........today dun feel like eating anything even though im hungry suddenly have no mood for everything and i found out y i am like cause is a raining day ..............................wanna run into the rain and sleep ..............
6:27 PM; &they are gone forever
