Monday, July 14, 2008
At a Lost
ytd night very happy that can pei my bao bei....but something is wrong when we on the way to her home im not sure how to use words to say but can only say something is amiss trying my best to cheer her up......however can felt she is not happy.....try to ask her wat is going on ............but she....she just dun wan to say ......suddenly find myself very lousy and useless cant figure out wat mistake have i done to make her so unhappy.......somehow......she cried....my heart so terrible......so terrible .....i tried to control my tears but still in the end it flow by itself......its soo painful to see her unhappy or sad and even she cried...although i cant cheer her up but at least i dun let her feel lonely ....she very caring and ask me to early to meet up with my buddy and go home early however i promise her something ...maybe she may forget but more importantly i did not forget.....hope my action warm up her heart ....letting her feel she is not alone..or even letting her feel emo........before i go i tried to see her as much as possible till she closed the door completely even when i walk downstair i keep looking up at her window to try to even see her as much as possible ......when meet up with buddies kang wei and zhi yong left sin yu i thought he watching tv will be coming down later but in the end he wan to sleep early and therefore do not wan to come down......suddenly then they tell me sin yu and apple break ....its like so sudden......wanna console sy but he not there he sleeping in his house ...think he not really sleeping but thinking bah......have a good chat with my buddies not bad lah the feel is still there.....that night when i reach back i msg her that i reach home she reply back i was shock dun tell me she got wait for me to reach home then sleep hor ......haiz disturb her sleep feel kind of bad.......hope she have enough sleep ......2day will be very tiring for her......and tonight will be meeting her again till her parents is back then i will leave.....hope to9 i can cheer her up ....for her happiness......bringing her smile back 4 sure .......4 sure.
6:20 PM; &they are gone forever
