Thursday, June 26, 2008
The wind stop......awhile
Ytd i was so happy that i can finally meet my dear ...=)...the feeling was just so happy and my aaction is just wanna hug her tight tight....XD .....felt so happy when i hug her ...........so happy that we can accompany each other for that one whole day ^_^ .........we shop orchard go cinneleisure 1st then the hilreen where we saw chrislyn ............had a long chat understanding how she is at the moment .........seems not like wat she wan.........kind of feel sad for her hope that in the future she is able to meet someone nice and her life will be brighten up.................then after that we go to coffee bean chat chat ............chat out alot of thing .............and reveal everything to my bao bei .........................ooooo night time we go her park there sit sit eat eat and chat again...till...i...go...home...a.n..d...found out something............somehow i lost myself i cant totally feel "me" as me i suddenly forget wats my name i forget who am i i suddenly lost something inside me that make me just only know wat is dunno dunno i dunno that s all i feel fear and coldeness i feel ..................i dunno ..........its so strange as if someone or something pull something me inside out even till now when im working i just now even forget to put on lunch time and carry on working...............its totally not like me ......in the past i will purposely wait until timing just nice and lunch time immediately yet i continue take up call ........i ask my colleagues y nobody say 2 but there is yet im so near the person who say 2 but i did not hear it ................wat is happening to me??????????????i use msg to msg my bao bei to grab hold of myself even now myself i try to use the feeling is not as powerful as in the past izzit my power of feeling is lost?or am i growing without my notice or i fallen without myself noticing ...................can only felt i am like a zombie freak or machine that ppl ask me do wat i do wat ...................and suddenly i start to dislike human just like my past ..............fighting with another me now ........................i felt something inside me is awaken abit but wat is the thing awake i can only feel fear for that awakening lucky is awaken by abit ..................or have i slowly start to lose my............... humanity?Dun think so just that some bad thing is brewing inside me .........wat izzit .......i wanna know.........or wat is the thing that make me feel lost ................i dunno........i dunno........that night the wind stop blowing when im asleep.....................
6:43 PM; &they are gone forever
