Tuesday, June 24, 2008
swing sway sway
BOOMMMMM................this time round i bombard my ownself le sob sob trying my best to handle everything in life but just that life is not easy especially for working life........T.T.........
Falling very very very verrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..................fast .........falling and falling.............trying my best not to be press down totally by the society........
i miss my bao bei sob sob i miss her so much ..............if its not for her i believe im totally crush now and brought out another me .................the society is just so cruel...............i miss my studying life .........i miss my serenity life ........peace in my heart calm in my soul ...............now is like i throw myself into a fire pitt where i cant get out ...................super painful .................only left with one hope that i can hold on to carry on walking..............ytd really down totally demoralised and almost lost in myself and scare of going back to nothingnesss suddenly ytd "time" come back my body and scare me ...........its just grab my heart and mind and make me lost in myself almost lost in my self totally sob sob lucky still got last piece of shard in my heart shining for me..........the last time i felt "Time" was in my poly year 1 but never thought now i would felt it back its so scary ytd time came back and tune the time forward and scare me .............lucky ytd bao bei got pei me in msn in the night that make me forget about it............my bao bei still the strongest able to make me feel so much better ./......there are times my bao bei is right i see too far ahead and got to start look wats in front of me .........but somehow i felt even though i seal up my ability and reset my ability back to zero and retrain myself in order to suits the working environment i lose even more and more ..............somehow my ability should say is a double edge sword or is a weapon there are soemtimes im force to take it up but there are alot of time im so afraid of taking up the sword somehow...................if i take up the sword i can say myself someone powerful over power ........but it will fill up and increase my sadness...........i finally found y im so pessimistic le ...............the only solution that i can calm my another me is through sad song LOL through sad song then they will be able to stop their movement and start to calm down .....................but i promise someone i wun be pessimistic and emo so wun do it so easily de..............i miss my bao bei...............i endure le endure 2 day no see her...............pengz............if the rain were to come again i think all my feeling for missing her will pour out totally too then i hope i can stand inside the rain cause like that no one will know thats my tear le ......................I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR T.T trying my best to control le just cant help feeling that T.T
6:55 PM; &they are gone forever
