Monday, April 21, 2008
Mistake and carelessness
21st of april i done such a terrible mistake that tear out my heart............i feel like crying all out and this time is tears of sadness cause my heartache...........
the moment i accidentally scare off her and the way she abit ignore me it make me ............think back of the past ...................i was almost going to 4get about everything but everything flash back and it was me who scare of my dear that make her this action.................i hate myself............i wanted to cry on the way home but i just cant cry .........................
The scar is acting back the pain drewing deeper into my heart .....tearing out everything...........she once give me a "hermit crab" and i felt like going back to the shell instead of coming out .............................late night i went back to darkness in search for my soul but never thought ......................i left half only ...................i felt so sick and tired but i remember wat i promis to myself never fall never stop till my time end...........................
Finally know what is call love..............so sweet ................so sad............so painful.........im so willing to give her my everything till im nothing ...................and now indeed im really nothing .....just like the past .................who lead a nothing life ............so ultimately there is noone i can trust in this world no one i can really lay my tired heart on ......................its just so lonely .....so painful
5:07 PM; &they are gone forever
