Sunday, March 9, 2008
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Today see my great grandmother lying in hospital kinda of sad ......after seeing her in pain..........so painful hope that i can share her burden ..................again i just feel so helpless again............dun like this feeling just dun like................
when i reach home as usual doing my chores and looking at my pal blog..............i saw something ........It goes like this , "my heart is closed.or maybe,even locked.i felt betrayed sometimes,or even being used,being treated like a toy.i m so exhausted.pls,dun say u understand this feeling or noe hw i m feeling.it is rubbish.u r nt me,so u'll nv noe.i realli wish to lock myself in a room,blasted the music n lie in my bed foreva.i dun wan to get out..i dun wan to get out n get hurt by the reality in the world.
m tired.i hated all these.no one ever love or understand me.perhaps i m weird,but this world is weirder.
laugh for all u wan for i m dead.i m dead inside out so u r juz laughing at someone hu's dead."
Now then i know im just so naive ............i neglected her feeling ...........i give her an offline msg apologising ............and i somehow kind of feeling low ............everything change again..................im tired going back to sleep...............nothing will revert as it is ..........it will only just continue.........continue till no time............im still as lonely as ever and i never get wat i wan ever in my life.........heh.................i will continue the test as promise .........and i will never head back ............never............................~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
7:02 AM; &they are gone forever
